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[Oct. 6th, 2009|08:44 pm] |
Went to Manifest the other day and got some new comics. :]
Mmmmm.
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|08:18 pm] |
It's been such a nice chilly fall day. woke up around 11AM (I know right?) and went out shopping. picked up the AFI CD (Song "100 Words" left over from Sing the Sorrow on disk two is worth the whole CD) went to School House, closed. went to Good-will and Taco Bell, since Daley got me craving it last night. Came home and crawled into bed for a nice, long nap. So peaceful and cold outside so I left the door open, inviting all the little insects in.
This chilly air makes me think of white Christmas lights... I wonder why.
(and no, it isn't just because of a day in December.) |
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|06:01 am] |
Woke up at 4:50AM with cramps/wanting to throw my guts up.
laid on the bathroom floor shaking for a good 30 minutes.
now I'm sitting here trying to make the choice of going back to bed
or going to the ER. ...I just wish I had somebody here for me.
I've never felt more alone in my life.
I'm going back to bed. |
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| Kiss the Goat |
[Sep. 12th, 2009|05:11 am] |
I'd fuck me.
Mmmm, cheesy photoshop photos... haha.
Kitti's back in TX, sadly... Hannah couldn't get up the money until tickets were 220 dollars so she waited until the next weekend (5 days from now). I've slowed down/stop taking a lot of medication to see how well these new meds are working. writing a good bit of music along with working with Jayme and Abbey on Skullduggery.
Still waiting around to hear back from disability, but they seem to be taking their sweet time... then again; it's only been a few months. The sooner I get it the sooner I can start getting back on my feet.
Sold 98% of the clothing... waiting on replies from a few people, but I'm honestly tired of waiting on them, so I'm going to put them up for bid on Ebay later this week when I find the time to do so... I'm going to put up some badass ones so be on the look-out for those. Thinking about painting some more, but haven't really had the time. Sooner or later I'm going to have a mass sell-out of pretty much everything I own getting ready to start saving for a good car/moving out.
Huge plans for next year... lots of changes and new paths to wonder. I'm just trying to make my way there. This year has been full of wonderful and awful times; the better out doing the bad... but I'm so ready for a new date, a new year, new faces and a new warmth. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2009|04:16 pm] |
Something is lacking. . .
Now, is it within' me?
or in my life? |
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| Craftylittlebastard. |
[Sep. 3rd, 2009|12:47 am] |
It's Craft Time!
Life is good. working on clothing; which is selling as soon as I upload it. Have all the money for the medication I need for this month, plus, the upcoming doctor's visits.
Just been working on orders and enjoying this nice chilly soon-to-be fall air. Life is really relaxing and I'm at peace with everything. Trying to hold back on taking too many pain killers; and only taking them when I really need them, I don't want my days to turn into just a large haze like they have been the past month. Hannah will be here in just one week, which I'm really excited about. I'm going to skip around showing her off to everybody, and I'm taking her to a good Waffle House. >:]
I'm now within' the project of "Skullduggery"
http://www.myspace.com/skullduggery
So you should add us and take a listen. |
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[Aug. 30th, 2009|04:41 pm] |
Alright... been awhile since I've really made an update-update. My Crohn's seems to be under-control, which it better fucking be with how much medication I'm on. Goddamn. Overall summer was pretty good, really relaxing and I did a lot of traveling up and down the cost. New York City, New Jersey, Philly, West Virginia, Georgia and ending in Tampa - Florida to see my Hannah. :] Had such a wonderful time there. Now I'm back trying to take care of doctor and medication bills... Me and Kitti have been making shirts together and selling them and doing pretty well... things are selling as fast as we put them up.
You should keep checking up on the album... things are always being posted.
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=44609385&albumId=2766866 |
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|04:57 pm] |
Tampa hates drawn on eyebrows. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2009|02:42 am] |
Does anybody have a slimy basement
I can make my cocoon in?
I wish to sleep for ages. |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2009|12:19 am] |
Four lines. twitching. four more lines.
Numb. rain pouring down from black skies. flashes of light light up the room. so alone. so lovely. I'm not worth anybody's time. |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2009|02:20 pm] |
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"I could tell you my adventures beginning from this morning, but its no use going back to yesterday, because i was a different person then." - Lewis Carroll
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[Jul. 21st, 2009|03:38 pm] |
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The disability interview went seemingly well. took a few days of paperwork and then an hour and an half of interview time. can take as long as 5 months to get a letter back, or as fast as 4 weeks... hopefully I'll hear from them soon. all I can do now is just wait. I'm going to apply for food stamps later on today and then out to pick up more meds. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2009|01:07 pm] |
"Nugghhh so I had the most vivid dream about you just now, I was sure it was real. I was over at this party with you at someone's house - or rather, I was in the party and I was waiting for you to show up. After a while when you didn't, I went to stand outside the house, and saw you were getting your ass kicked by like 7 guys out on the street. I tried to get your friends at the party to help but nobody would do anything, so alone and unarmed I waded into the fray and fought my way to you. I finally got to you but then this fat guy had a gas can and was going to splash it on us and set us on fire, but you beat him to pulling out a zippo and threw it at him and set HIM on fire. Then everyone panicked and we had to run for it through this sprawling maze of suburban housing developments."
^Haha. I love Hydro and his dreams about fat rednecks^
Woke up pretty early today (Well, for me at least) around 1:03PM, due to the fact that I took so many pills yesterday I kept falling asleep in random places; like watching a movie, talking on the phone, sewing, eating, taking even more pills or just standing in one place. plus, I was having the worst moodswings I've ever had in my life. PLUS panic attacks which led to me taking even more pills (xanax) So, overall I mixed around 18 pills yesterday and lost my mind. Not good. The steroids are starting to effect my moods and my weight... and my bipolor meds are no help with the weight aswell, so I'm going to have to start out with a workout plan or something.
Right now I'm getting dressed to go out for the day. summer cookouts, friend's house and then maybe a house show? |
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| House of Usher |
[Jul. 18th, 2009|02:44 am] |
Me and my friends found this house within' the outer lines of downtown Chester and fell right in love with it. it's 100% empty and we're trying to find the family who owns it so we can take out a loan and buy it from them. we want to turn it into a house for all the misfit and lost children. plus, a home for artists, freaks, musicians, runaways, punks or just whoever needed a room. we're going to have so many house shows, parties, drugs and music going on in that house it won't even be funny. it'll be a playland for the waste life has thrown to the sides.
For right now I'm relaxing and taking things really slow... going out no more than once a week. snorting the pain pills are helping me deal with all the pain and shit. but other then that life is going wonderfully. I've been working on music... I have kindof a chiptune/Terror-EBM sort of deal. hopefully once I get past all this illness I'll be able to get out and do some house shows / bar gigs and fuck shit up. But for now; I'm taking everything one step at a time.
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[Jul. 17th, 2009|03:55 am] |
Went to the Gastroenterologists today to try and get some medication and see if there is anyway I can slow down my Crohn's disease from coming back so fast. I'm back on 40mg of steroids, oxycodone and some Crohn's medication I've never heard of. So, now I'm taking around 8 pills a day. fucking grand.
I took a bar of xanax before I went in to see the Gastroenterologists, which wasn't a good idea due to the fact that I woke up that morning around 4am throwing up and didn't go back to sleep, thus turning me into a zombie and forgetting half the things the doctor talked to me about.
I believe we're putting off the colonoscopie until I'm on disability, which can take up to three months or so... All life is fucking waiting.
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